I was telling a friend the other day to pray for meekness for me. I told her that if the meek shall inherit the earth. (Matthew 5:5 NKJV), I would surely inherit a big dose of nothing. When I asked for prayer in this way, I didn't realize just how much I needed it.
You see, I enjoy yelling. I slam doors. I like to think its a gene embedded deep in my soul. Yesterday was, well, one of those days.... It began as a normal day. My son and I had homeschool. He complained of a headache and we laid down and snuggled together. Then we got our work done and even did an extra fun project. Things were good. I picked up my daughter from school and they went straight to their rooms and worked diligently on homework while I cleaned house. It was a good day. Then dinner time came. Is this time of day stressful for anyone else? Why does it have to be that way? We sit down, everyone eats dinner pleasantly except my son.Same scenario EVERY night. I feel like we have to coach him through every bite to just get through a meal. After a while, this grates on my nerves. Last night, was one of those times. I picked up the fork and began to feed my son that is perfectly capable of doing it himself. I yelled at him to eat. I told him 'how sick I was of this happening every night'. I even set a timer for him to be done because 'I was over it!' It was at this point my son got up from the table and puked in the bathroom stating his head was throbbing! He had a migraine! He didn't feel like eating. And here Worst Mom of the Year had pushed and pushed because to me it seemed like every other time he doesn't eat. I felt like crawling out of the room. Of course I did get to get on my knees to clean up puke.
The Lord has his way of getting me on my knees one way or another!
So this brings me back to my prayer for meekness.
I need a double dose please!!
I actually do NOTenjoying yelling, or slamming doors.
I want to be THAT mom filled with patience, power under control, quick to listen and slow to speak.
Meek: humble, teachable, and patient under suffering; willing to follow gospel teachings; an attribute of a true disciple, gentle, instructing those that oppose, meekness allows a person to overlook or forgive perceived insults or offenses.
Lord, fill me with the fruit of the spirit, meekness!